The Introspectacles

 Confidence in one’s own worth or abilities. If you are like me, then low self-esteem is probably something that has gnawed at your life. The more I think about things, the more I am beginning to understand that my feelings of anxiety, frustration, a kind of depression and a general lack of contentment are all symptoms of my inability to trust myself. So I have given this word a lot of thought and I wanted to write it down somewhere so I can read it whenever I forget the truth of this matter. If I were to describe the way I think in a sentence, it would be this: During the most important moments in life, I can never seem to rise up to the challenge; I always let myself down. The biggest problem with not having enough self-esteem is that when other people treat you less, you start to believe that you are in fact less. Unable to trust your own thoughts, you end up seeking your worth from outside only to be disappointed because not many people care what you are worth. It does no...

 A thinking place. I am a thinker. Not a very productive one, but a thinker nevertheless. I think all the time about various things of consequence and otherwise to the point of ruminating at times. Sometimes I discover something new and manage to make a note of it. More than once I have had some big revelations only to be forgotten moments later. Most of the times though, my thinking ends up straying and meandering until I have reached a completely different destination from the one I originally sought. I wonder if such thinking has any real value. Then there are some people (annoying family members perhaps) who already know how to think and it blows my mind. I wonder, ‘how did they stumble upon this secret? Is there a secret camp where they teach you how to think? If so how do I apply for it? That is where the word ‘Phrontistery’ comes in; and I wonder why it is no longer used in our present language. (I stumbled onto this word a few years back in a blog called “The Phront...