Religion

I am a drifter. I feel guilty for having drifted through a lot of life but the truth is I like drifting. If there was no end, that is how I would spend my life. But, 'Guilt' and 'Shame' tag along because I know that one day my brain is going to stop and I will cease to exist; and just like that I will disappear. 

There probably isn't enough time to do all the things I want to, or learn about it all. Such a shame that our lives are so fleeting. What will this planet be like 10,000 years from today? Will humans even exist? Would we have evolved into something else? Will we really be travelling through space as easily as we travel by cars today? It feels like I'll be missing out on so many things.... and even now it feels like I am missing out on so many things. Every choice I make leads me away from a different path. Even so, I enjoy drifting. 

This is the human condition right now; always conflicted. Will we ever find the answers? Are we even capable of it? Or is our consciousness just high enough to make us ask these questions but not find the answers? 

Maybe what some say is true; maybe we have infinite lives. It would be a big comfort to know that that is true. But that's what it might be -just something to comfort us, to let go of our fear of missing out, or our regrets; to make peace with the fact that we will die someday. Religions all have these claims as to what the universe is really like. One life, many lives, one god, many gods. It's claimed with such certainty that most of us fail to see that we have no real reason to believe any of it. Such pain and division over something that may not even be true. Why can't people just admit the truth of our condition: We don't know. We don't know any of it. I believe that if enough of us start admitting to this, the world would be a better place today. (I can't claim to know about the future or past.) This is my Agnostic point of view.